More Light is Coming

Sometimes it starts with seeing from the inside-out. Sometimes things are so darn slow changing on the outside, that it’s almost impossible to see at all. And so, it helps to step back, take a couple deep breaths, and start again. This time trying to see differently. Maybe this time try seeing bigger or try seeing tinier. It’s there. Sometimes the knowing in your head is the easy part, it’s the believing in your heart-of-hearts that’s so damn hard.
 
Today marks the shift for our part of the world. This gift-of-shift comes once each year when both the sun and moon acknowledge that more light coming. Beginning this day there will be more light shining on and around us, and maybe within us as well. Centuries ago, Rumi was heard to say, “What you seek is seeking you,” and maybe that’s all the reassurance we need for now and the days to come.
 
I was raised-up with the ideas that glasses were half-empty or half-full, doors were opened or closed, lights were turned on or off. And now I know that life isn’t nearly as easily measured or understood or lived out. Sometimes there is beauty in stopping for a second and seeing how lovely it is to hold the glass, how good it tastes to drink the water. Sometimes even in the darkness I believe, I hope, I trust that light will come.
 
What would I say to Rumi that I have been seeking in these past weeks? What am I seeking in this precious moment? I am seeking comfort for friends who are grieving their loss of loved ones, and praying for relief for a dear soul I love who is wrestling with depression. I am seeking for bombs and bullets to stop, I am seeking for the hungry to be fed and the thirsty given water, I am seeking the orphaned children to be picked up in warm blankets and gently and lovingly held. And I know I can’t control much of any of that happening. So, what I sing out for on this first morning of more light coming is Emmanuel. I whisper and sing out for love big enough to hold us in what is broken and longing. I seek God’s lovingkindness abiding with me, with us as we continue on into this day.  

(Thanks, Leslee for this picture)

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