Budding into Blossom
And the time came when the risk to remain tight in bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.
~ Anais Nin
Breath Prayer: “our time” “has come”
Moments shape our lives. They are mileposts along the way that give us perspective and mark significant times in our life story. Great joy and deep sadness. Lessons learned along the way, and sometimes places where those same lessons have been learned a second or even third time. These moments are ever connecting our life story to the greater one.
There comes a time when we know we must risk stepping into what is next for us. This time when we know that we can no longer stay where we are and that it is now time to move on. Here in this moment, we know that the fear of what is next is great, but the pain of staying in this place is even greater.
Taking that next step can sometimes feel as though it costs us our lives to do so. Just that one move from left foot to right will put something in motion that is beyond our control. In just that one act, we sense that nothing may ever be the same again.
We have been held-in long enough. We have been held in the bud of this flower, slowly now turning her face to the warmth of the sun. It is as though this season has brought us here, to this place of transformation. How to follow? What is being asked of us? Will we be able to do what is next to be done? How will we know if this is right?
We surrender this moment, from bud to blossom. Not because we must, but because we may.
Prayer: Holy Spirit, guide us this day. Lead us from this place of being known into what is next. Transform what has always been into what has always been meant to be. Show us where to place our next step and we will follow with thankful prayers. Amen.
Working in Family Experience at Children's Healthcare of Atlanta, Lesley is an ordained minister in the United Church of Christ. A Candler School of Theology graduate, Lesley has just published her second book, Grief and the Psalms: Companioning the Moon for 29 Days (available on this website). She and her partner, Linda Ellis are raising their two sons, Brogan and Sam in Decatur, GA.